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1. |
Better Off
03:35
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A joker's gotta get in one more word
Bad timing? Who cares? They gotta try to stir
Up a good thing, something better off
Than a fool who only took and took
You can't mourn what wasn't a loss
You want your chance now that it's long-dead
To seize regret, let die the moments
There for you
For you
Missed shots enchant us with far-off allure
You decorate the past to clutch at a cure
When the truth is we're both better off
Absence does make the heart grow fonder
For itself, not what's under the gloss
You want your chance now that it's long-dead
To seize regret, let die the moments
There for you
For you
What you dreamed has left you shaking,
kept you aching
For what's gone
But your real days can glitter,
And time's been frittered
For far too long
You want your chance now that it's long-dead
To seize regret, let die the moments
There for you
For you
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2. |
Over Again
04:01
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I know it's very unkind of me
To take that time machine you're holding
But I guess it wasn't a dream when you showed up it seemed, nephew,
You in the face but 10 years older
No debate
Child version has convinced me it's real
Unaware adult-you would prove it
Or wait,
I am already confused
If it's not my timeline, I lose it
I'll ride a pterodactyl
Disguise as Neil Armstrong
Not waste my dollar back there
On that machine with the claw
Shoot into the future too, when everyone has robot friends
And once that's all done
I'll do my life all over again
Warp to a talk that I had
With my best friend Brad, tip-toe up to myself
And when he sees me twice and he screams, drops his Jim Beam,
I'll say, "See? I told you all I could raise hell"
But they were right
I have waited for far too long,
Not done what I really wanted
Could this night
Be the start to redoing my life?
Maybe I won't die as haunted
I'll ride a pterodactyl
Disguise as Neil Armstrong
Not waste my dollar back there
On that machine with the claw
Shoot into the future too, when everyone has robot friends
And once that's all done
I'll do my life all over again
Dialed to '88
Now I wait and wait
Til I wring out fate dry
But this Fisher Price thing only blinks at me
Future-you, was that just a look-a-like?
'Cause I'm still broke
Still wandering,
now I'm stealing these toys from a six-year-old brat
A bad joke,
What have I done? What a mess this is
Now I can't go back
I'd ride a pterodactyl
Disguise as Neil Armstrong
Not waste my dollar back there
On that machine with the claw
Shoot into the future too, when everyone has robot friends
And once that's all done
I'd do my life all over again
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3. |
Marred
03:00
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You're kicking hard to crack your shell
But I've kept you from spilling
And I'd have stayed sealed 'round your hell
If you'd stopped, just stop, holding on to her
Yet I'm better than that, I'm better than that
Even when I'm begging
Why act smart like a rat, act smart like a rat?
To learn her maze and move on memory
Don't you know
You've gone too far
Already marred
What I thought I could be
So why does she
Get to tear me down
To hush my sound
Just to get free of me
Sure, she can grip with grey deceit
But real gravity, that's all mine
Just try to turn your thoughts from me
When you've seen truth and light and color spinning 'round
Sad they fell for that act, they fell for that act
Learn mealy-mouthed right when you meet it
Don't sense that knife at your back, that knife at your back
Make up a soul despite all feeling
Don't you know
You've gone too far
Already marred
What I thought I could be
So why does she
Get to tear me down
To hush my sound
Just to get free of me
It's always the same,
You've got to want that freedom on your own,
But can't be alone
Left me to blame
With just cracking bones; can I condone myself?
Break from my cell?
Don't you know
You've gone too far
Already marred
What I thought I could be
So why does she
Get to tear me down
To hush my sound
Just to get free of me
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4. |
Good Intentions
05:52
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5. |
Alone
03:22
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I am the type to keep more hope from my head
What's sparkling sand thrown beneath hard sediment?
Made of the pain, layered tightly, pressing in
Who knew those bands weighed enough to snap my splints?
Me
I know how said "love" feels
In that case, I don't need
That nightmare with its greed from you
Not anymore
My good will on the floor
And look, now you want more
Tear my spine right through my pores
Or relinquish me
((It's just a thing you say, it's just a word,
Don't need it from you, don't want it from you
You crave the nothing I've left to give
Well, of course you do, of course you do))
What's life in fear? With an hourglass in my sight?
And trembling, when I think, Matter of time
Before I turn words again from God to you
"Where are you now?" "What was I?" "Can't this undo?"
Me
I know how said "love" feels
In that case, I don't need
That nightmare with its greed from you
Not anymore
My good will on the floor
And look, now you want more
Tear my spine right through my pores
Or relinquish...
If I had let this go
Torn all senses from that fancy long before
That can't change the truth that
We are alone
With our dark hands luring, taking
Us out of line
Betraying all, all our base desires
Where do you go?
When you can't count on yourself making
A choice that's right
You're not right, excuses can't rewire
Me, me...
Me
I know how said "love" feels
In that case, I don't need
That nightmare with its greed from you
Not anymore
My good will on the floor
And look, now you want more
Tear my spine right through my pores
Or relinquish me
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6. |
Biased Notice
03:54
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Oh I'm wrapped up again
In those disloyal dreams
In which now you seem
Like just a character contrived
No, it's not you, drunk,
Yelling in the street
About people's selfish needs
But a need I know you had
To be
With Some-
Body
Testament of our worth lives with pretty words
And with their absence too quickly burns
I'm mulling over my biased notice
I've tried to focus
On something not so wrong
But hapless timing,
Your steady lying,
And good men pining
Keep me from wanting anything
Cause I can't recall
Anything okay
And if it was, then hey,
Now it's over and it's done
Even slivers
Of pure giddiness
Just evanesce
When you're wondering where the time
Has gone
For you
And me
Then as though, it never happened your heart pumps on,
On and on, oh on and on
I'm mulling over my biased notice
I've tried to focus
On something not so wrong
But hapless timing,
Your steady lying,
And good men pining
Keep me from wanting anything
Anything
Anything
Can be glanced over or even left behind
Except I cannot seem to get it off my mind
That you saw me at my worst, and you stood by
While I left, not even the first but the last time
I'm mulling over my biased notice
I've tried to focus
On something not so wrong
But hapless timing,
Your steady lying,
And good men pining
Keep me from wanting anything
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7. |
Solace
02:50
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8. |
Owed
04:35
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Jen O'Sullivan Syracuse, New York
Jen O’Sullivan is a singer-songwriter from Syracuse, NY who plays guitar, oboe, piano, accordion, flute, bass, and makeshift percussion. Her songs are known for their strong vocals, catchy melodies, and imagery-rich lyrics. When she’s not working as a Licensed Veterinary Technician, she writes, records, and produces her music in her bedroom. She also enjoys video games, anime, and writing fiction. ... more
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